Beyond My Bars

Metal clanking,
Chains clanging,
People yelling,
Phones ringing,
But all I want to see,
Is the bright blue sky.
Behind these bars,
Behind these chains,
I am a prisoner.
Locked in with no way out.
But not only am I just physically confined.
I am emotionally incarcerated.
No one to talk to.
I can’t even cry.
No emotions flow
Just the thought keeps running through my mind,
I need a way out.
So I found ways to occupy my thoughts,
Change my perspective,
Engage my strength,
It didn’t change my situation
It didn’t change my attitude
It didn’t change anything,
Just covered it up.
I knew nothing good would come of it
I wouldn’t actually be on the road to recovery
I wouldn’t be proactively deciding on a better path.
I was just completely avoiding
All decisions,
All thoughts,
All outcomes.
Just focused on what would help me through this moment.
Here I am,
Searching
Seeking
Looking
Grasping
For reality.
For what is on the other side of the bars.
But how do I attain what I see?
How can I make my dreams a reality?
How can I break free from this prison that has me trapped?
Then I realized.
I can’t.
I have no power.
I have no strength.
I have no desire.
I can’t.
But then,
My name is called.
Miss Jazzmin.
Your bail has been paid.
You are free to leave.
Your Father has paid it all.
As I walked to the counter to gather my things,
I see a man.
A man who loves me with all His heart.
A man who will give up the universe just for me.
He walks by.
He smiles at me.
I notice the handcuffs placed on His wrists.
They are dangling just below the nail prints.
A soft voice whispers to me.
You can go beyond these bars,
You can see the bright, blue sky.
You can change your perspective.
Because,
I love you.

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11 thoughts on “Beyond My Bars

  1. Sylvia Jules Kal says:

    Wow I Actually believed its Your “Heavenly Father” And it actualy is your dad. What love we get from our parents. Beautiful piece absolutely soul wrenching! We all have a choice, Even deciding to do nothing is a choic

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